Day 25: Earth Angel

Can you believe I've made it this far through Denise's book? I'm positively thrilled. And before I get to today's work, I must share that my spanking clean windows are awesome. My plants seem to love them as well. They have perked up like mad. I'm also thrilled to be the recipient of a $100 rebate check, which arrived today from the computer company.* I have Denise to thank for giving me the framework to create so much change. So many feelings—even old friends—has been re/surfacing, I can't call it all coincidence. What a spine-tingling clusterfuck!

Anywho, today's work takes us to deeper into our bodies and into the body of the earth itself. Through a series of visualizations, we're asked to connect to the vibrations of the natural world around us and to feel ourselves at one with Nature. Yesterday's workout ran right along those lines. As I looked out the window of the gym and considered the beauty of the sunset, I reflected on it again this morning, thinking again about how we all benefit from the sun simply being itself. Accordingly, I owe it to the world, the Universe, MANKIND to be my true self, too. Don't worry, I'm only using the caps for dramatic effect. I'm no megalomaniac.

Remember that bullshit job fair I went to a couple of weeks ago? I totally had no business being there, and I knew it. Had I been paying attention to my natural vibration like Denise is talking about, I would have stayed at home, rather than going down there to feel like a complete nincompoop because I didn't 'fit in' to their scene. What I should have been doing was finding ways to do things I'm good at to make money, and—here comes another aha moment—the money would follow. Of course there's no guarantee that money would come from doing things I love—singing for peanuts and writing this free blog illustrate my point perfectly—but I know how great I feel when I do what I love. It sure beats the hell out of toiling away at things I suck at.

Anyway, Denise asks us to close our eyes and imagine ourselves in nature for about fifteen minutes. I attempted to do so today on the train, but got interrupted as the lady sitting next to me began to inch across the line on her side of the seat. She was antsy, way too boundary-free and extremely eager to get up in my space. I wasn't having it.

I see I'll have to revisit that visualization here at home. Alone.

But before I step away to mentally merge with Mother Earth, I'm digging the sound of the rain right now outside my windows.

PS Did I mention my windows now sparkle with clarity by day and by night?

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*Two years ago, I bought a computer that came with a 'free' printer, providing I turned in the rebate in time. I sent it in as per their rules. I then received a letter saying I missed the cutoff date and was therefore ineligible for the hundred bucks. Shit, I thought. Well, more than two full years later, they send me an email asking for my current address because they want to cut me a new check. And sure enough I'm on my way to the ban with it as we speak, er, type.